LOVE WITHOUT CONDITIONS

The chapter that bears the title. Love without conditions. I have reread for days now. Trying to absorb the words into being. Finally a dream during the night that gave me hope. I was back in high school only at the age I am now. Major scene at PE and a basketball game where I am playing horribly but the kids seem to not notice. The PE teacher is supportive. After the game I can not remember my locker number or the combination. The kids are helpful and respectful. The teacher is going out of her way to help. Scene at the lunch room. I am trying to heat water for chamomile tea. Lots of burners but they are broken or I do not know how to turn them on. No one notices yet I feel like I am being obviously pitiful. I finally just start drinking the water which is warm and tasteful. I find my daughter, Sarah, at a table with her boyfriend and do not want to interfere with their time but she welcomes me over and tells me how proud she is of me. I do not understand why since I have done nothing but she tells me she really is.

I believe that when we dream all of the characters in the dream are aspects of ourselves. I am inclined to believe that in this dream I as the major character is fumbling in the earth school. I see myself as not doing well or little but within me are the minor characters. Those who just watch, those who support and those who are backing me up and showing love. No matter what the experiences of my life within myself remains a constant love that is always there regardless of what is happening in the outside world. It is a love without conditions. This love support is only asking that I show up.